(blogging) friends forever :P

thanks jahnabi :))))))))))))))))

a gauging heart :P

in the soiree of lamp and night

I get to a place, out of stillness

From de gravity of ur thoughts

De never changing change,
Gallows around me neck
But this time, I smile as I greet and accept
My savior is here at last!

My priced possessions, Fail to fascinate
A distant ship, which travels
Frisking de horizon when it’s dark
De water awakes, and excitingly then
Looks for its caller in me reflection
Strange, I have one? whenI am only a wallowed past

But it ‘ld not appease for an answer
It shows no sign of surprise
Long it has made truce with waking
Before de morning has arrived!

Then is it only for me?
To change and still not be

A sudden chorus arouses, and
My lone lair is approached
I do realize de time isn’t yet here
i am lonely but not used to be alone

a wedding of two worlds

when hope cooke, a graduate of the Sarah Lawrence college in bronxville, new york, came to Darjeeling for a holiday in 1959, she could not have dreamt that her life as a Manhattan debutante was going to change forever. but it did. in Darjeeling she met de widowed crown prince of sikkim, palden thondup namgyal. palden himself had become the crown prince because of an accident of fate: born as the second son he was trained to head a lamasery 'til de death of his elder brother in an air crash made him the heir to de throne. hope n palden fell in love, and decided to marry. it was on 20th may 1963 that hope cooke became hope namgyal, de future gyalmo of sikkim.

de last Chogyal 'palden thondup' with his wife, gyalmo 'hope cooke '

ps-photo curtsy-shetal pradhan 'an eminent explorer of sikkim'
dates n facts- sujoy das 'writer n photographer'

26/11-a rebel's ode

Annie frank, before she paid it with her life for being a jew, wrote to her diary, 'its not Hitler, no its not his government. its the common man. its de common man who loves de war so much. for if he doesn't and if he, along all his fellow men had stood against it, there were never a war'. she died, 13 and alone, in some concentration camp.

like some other good billion who weren't there to witness or be victimized, i too somehow, felt de clog on air, on our civil liberty, over our abris, under our floor, and on human relations as we find it hard to believe 'the man' that happens to walk beside us.

my take on that is through ma song, a so called rebel, de quipping innocent people, de non terminally sick political frame, a commotion...bleak n just to fade, n de papers, de stories, de reports, de coverages, de casts, de blames n one pose... is all dis with any end?

I am a rebel, a more like saint
i wear long hair n some pretensions out here
I am innocent, so I don’t love de war
But if that be true, dere were no wars to argue.

If 62 hrs, when you were awake ‘til late
N your love for mascot of death n hate
Wouldn’t seize de fire from guns n grenade
I ‘ld rather suggest lets just all call it a date.

We ‘re not like dem, you got ny doubt?
Lets just say if dere league is to explode
I wouldn’t, for years, hear any sound.

It was on air for hrs, with no blink or vert
De cover was high. N so was de dirt
Yes I’ve smeared my eyes, bearing a lil hurt
I am a rebel, like another good million Kurt

I hate wars, didn’t I make myself clear?
Or just a sec, is it that I just think so?

czz if i had really stood against it all
and you sir, before I was born
n all de other ‘innocent’ for law n don
I humbly ask, if there had ever been a war?

Its just that we all love it
Much Like all de others who actually kill
Aint it a cheap fun to watch
Tears n heads all around with out much frill

But I refrain my lines and I m happy with it
I am a rebel, I am a rebel, I am a rebel
without a cause...

cassie...

during de Columbian shooting, the gunner pointed de gun at a girl's face and said, do you believe in god? she said yes, and he shot her. she died. then to the other girl, cassie, he said, do you believe in god? and she said yes and he shot her. but she didn't die. so he asked her again, do you still believe in god? and she said yes, and he shot her. and then she died!

snow over de lake 'tsongmo'

dis one just comes out of an old write up, dating 23rd dec. '06. written in a nostalgic streak ab't de lake tsongmo (pronounced as changgu) in sikkim. de lake as by legends was percussed to look forward in de future. de lamas could forecast ab't anything by just looking at de ever changing color of de water in de lake! de tsongmo so is spared from any kind of human touch. but does it? even if ye only all ab't being dere, on its inhumane, celestial face, ye sure go touched by something.

Snow over the lake ‘tsongmo’

Here, where rays come, so frail

it is sun’s oasis, hence he sleeps

ere a lonely hail.

shall we rest upon

before we free our sails.

and wind so dense by miles of veil

mist; as in a legendary tale

winding up some twisting stairs

shall we pedal upon them to heaven

before it rains.

magic, full of love and swains

a place, as if a lost refrain

Sung upon rhymes of her,

who found us in her verse.

Snow over the lake, of tsongmo,

no lily, no flow, no wave, no boat, though,

just snow, but not the one

which drops from skies,

a touch of water within,

it is born intrigue of Fay’s eyes.

She, comely and alone

here on the broken doors,

calling for the rue, within,

to be free and to flow.

Shall we merge our songs

in her calls,

snow over the lake ‘tsongmo’

may sway and begin to glow.

inside frizzy dews of winters,

who knows there may be a spring’s rose.

Snow of tsongmo ‘ll go rive,

Lake is to flow then to shrive

A hope she brings

shall make it alive.

Lake tsongmo is our home

So in snow or with spring’s roam

It is our home, it is our home

love ke funde :P

1.If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?

I knw dis…I knw dis…first I ‘ll just knock myself away from her…never getting complainant. ‘ld try to sway de blues away! Den I ll end up feeling ‘it was me’ :( aye…dats me!

2.If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?

Uhh…go on 'n' up with a ‘Sikkim’ based rock/grunge punk band as de vocalist
N Get saal*i to see me :P wink wink! 'n' I think dis alone wont do me…need more dreams to get true.

3.Whose butt would you like to kick?

My own :P

4. Why do you blog?

Just in hope to get read! Arunima ‘pestered’ me hard to start up my own blog when I had become frequent on her blog. 'N' for long she was de sole reader.

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?

I would have by now if only I had a she friend. :P dun think its better to court a girl ye know inside out? Czz it saves you de usual ‘hi-n-hiee’ routine!

6. Which is more blessed: loving someone or being loved by someone?

Ahem ahem…! Uh?? Hmmmmmmmm!! Ooooooo!! I think its de mix bag of both which can really be counted in as a blessing!

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you love?

Three years n still counting :P lol! I think waiting is de worst part of life, but we all go taxing around for it!

8. If the person you secretly like is attached, what will you do?

Well I will get another story to tell…! :P Hehe

9. if you could root for one social cause, what would it be?

Many actually! There‘re kids of lesser privileges 'n' we, de overwhelmed sect, need to take care of that. Den it’s high time we stop loading women with de ‘he’ –righteousness, and get hard on every crime against them.

10. What takes you down the fastest?

Just anything.

11. What resurrects you the fastest?

Good music and singing always reels me off! But in Sikkim, it was de rush of a water fall that would do the tickling trick for me. I would run away for escape to any of de many water falls my home was surrounded with, only to come out better! We had this cave sorta thing in one of de water fall where me 'n' sachin daaju would seat for long hrs, well aye de ticking clock doesn’t hold much good back den!

12. What’s your fear?

To be ordained by myself and if I find myself unable to sing again.

13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?

Uhh…! I tagged myself. Another self explanatory note uh??

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married and poor?

Rich or poor, single is de way to be! :P lol

15. What’s the first thing you do when you wake up?

Turn on de tube n play music.

16. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously who will you pick?

‘ld rather go by de old book here, let go off both!

17. Would you give all in a relationship?

Uh as in?

18. Would you forgive and forget someone no matter how horrible a thing he has done?

With de poignant memory I got, forgetting never is an option. But forgive aye, at very first sign of remorse, 'n' occasionally even in lieu of it.

19. Do you prefer being single or in a relationship?

I have always been single. So to draw my preferences I need to get on de other side first. hehe

20. Tag 6 people.

Uhh arunima, arunima, arunima, arunima, arunima, 'n' when she is done with the first five, arunima :P

de dirt on de window

Tonight as I opened my window,

to dat old forgotten street lamp, broken now,

de sound suggested, how its been many calendars

since I last looked through it, into de dawn

I knew that star into de right, you see?

Yes de one that looks into my eyes, back to me!

Oh it has sure grown up, like me… n recalling?

yeah n de last i can, we had long lone conversation 'bout a dream

What was her name?? Sally?? Sammy??... Salvi?

Never mind! I am not all good with names, dealing with bigger codes!

But she lived there once, beyond that aligned window ye see

just a block away, when I was 13 n if ye just cross that dim road!

What ye got my un-cool high school’ snapshoot?

Where is that girl of angels, where is that hero of de class?

All wedged to the wet walls of my wandering years,

hanging loose to one side, like a cross on ma gun’s craft!

compensation...! :P

We had planned to see each other..! I know how I tend to act like de biggest pakkau n mess anyone can ve around…! So I wrote dis poem to give ye…aye you…as compensation…!! lol!!

I start with stories;
some are true, some close to lies
We kiss the time we buy,
We get high to a sound passing by!

I ‘ll throw ma sables away, for tonight
I have just learnt how to live as we fight!

I hitch ma self to you
This lone thoroughfare, to de world of fairies
They will talk tomorrow
Of a happy death, in a world of tragedies!

a wink of a newly born in me
While de yesterdays close in to there endings
This page I m writing on
a page of life, is de last for my memories!

that it came back yet again...yeah 'TAG' :)

1. Last movie you saw in a theater?
- jaane tu...yaa jaane naa! good flick....with a better chick :) its not always that i remember a flick for an un-leading character...amit, aditi's solacing brother...n its not everyday that i remember a character more den a good movie, and thats as rare as butterflies in washroom, where it wasn't flashed for more den 4 mins...!

2.What book are you reading?
-three mistakes of my life :) hehe

3.Favorite board game?
-carom board! hehe...!!

4.Favorite magazine?
-'physics today' lol...!! used to read it in my school library.

5.Favorite smells?
- de scent of de dry mud in de pouring rain. its infectious... n makes me nostalgic about something i guess i never had.

6.Favorite sounds?
-a husky voice... an acoustic guitar beside it... and a song of life or something close to it...! n i also like what echoes into my heart when i close my ears to the sound of big water falls...! n when rain hoots over metal roof...!

7.Worst feeling in the world?
-if its a feeling ye ask, how can i name it? could you??

8.What is the first thing you think of when you wake up?
- now what?? lol....!!

9.Favorite fast food place?
-MCD n de dhelewalla in our vicinity...!!

10. Future child's name?
-cp'n jack sparrow...?? or what about bon jovi?? n cobain...dat aint bad either...!! hehe...!! lol...! n if its a girl child...ahh... lavigne as a name would just do the good...!!

11.Finish this statement! "if i had a lot of money i'd...?"
-try to buy a life out of it...! n 'll make sure that dis tym around life aint all about me!

12.Do you drive fast?
-ahhh...i dont drive...!

13. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?
-nay...dats for humans naa?? hehehe...!! but yeah i do keep an extra pillow

14.Storms- cool or scary?
-cool... with no second thoughts.

15.what was your first car?
- bugatti veyron...!! hasta la vista baby...!! hehehe...!!

16.Favorite drink?
-only hard drinks... like thumps up lol...!! n tea... n fruit juices...!!

17.Finish this statement! "if i had the time i would...?"
- i have already got all the time in the world... so i would end up not doing anything else...!

18.Do you eat the stems on broccoli?
- nop...! n mummy always complains about it.

19. If you could dye your hair any color, what would be your choice?
-i 'll dye them to black hehehe lol...!!

20.Name all the different cities/towns you have lived in?
-Gangtok(sikkim) n New Delhi

21.Favorite sports to watch?
-soccer n lawn tennis...n some whacking sports

22.One nice thing about the person who sent this to you?
- one?? cant we make it...1000 gud things or so?? nop?? hehe...!! do ye know the term ''pure awesomeness"? aye.... dats her! lol...!

23.whats under your bed?
-an empty bucket... my shoes czz i never put them in shoe rack... my football... n a broken n old badminton racket...!

24.Would you like to be born as yourself again?
-well...nop! czz whats de fun playing the same part...over n over again...!! y not try something unusual...something wackier... weirder... n zanier...!!

25.Morning person or night owl?
-neither

26.Over easy, or sunny side up?
-rum pica pica...pica pica rum...!! lol...!!

27.Favorite place to relax?
-over a nice dose of music... or a calm stroll....!!

28.Favorite pie?
-American pie hehehe....!!lol

29.Favorite ice cream flavor?
- i like dem in every n any flavor

30.of all the people you tagged this to, who is most likely to respond first?
- am not all game for tagging people...!! :) hehe

IPOD FOR TAG

this is what you gotta do before you start of the tag :-

1. Put your MP3 player/media player on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write the name of the song no matter what.

i unpacked every folder for every possible trace of a music file... n strung dem out in my windows media player...!

n realized my drives badly need a wiping...!

1. If some one says "is it okay?" you say??
forces of nature by back street boys

eoo...!! ''opposite attracts..chemicals react"?? offf...! jahnabi...read dat?? dats fr u...chemical locha...! lol...! n arunima u too ree...one year in hansraj aye?

"deserts need de rain"...!! ahh very informational...!! :) hehehe...!!

2. What would best describe your personality?

czz i love you- shakin steven


"well i'm sorry if it sounds kinda sad"...!

ahh... who uploaded dis track on ma pc anyways...? uh??

3. What do you like in a guy/gal?

already gone

hehe...!! de cliches... who ported it into ma system...??

4. How do you feel today?
last caress...green hell by metallica

"i ve got something to say....
i killed ur baby today and it
doesn't matter much to me
as long as its dead"...!!

hehehe...!(hellish grin) ye got me to confession uh...!! :)

5.whats the purpose of your life?
save de best fr last- Venessa Williams

"its nt de way i hoped or how i planned
but somehow its enough...

jst wen i thought our chance had passed...u go n save de best for last" :)

6. what is your motto??

sink de pink -ac/dc

sink de pink... its all de fashion
drink de drink..its old fashioned
gimme water...gimme wine...
gonna show u a gud tym
sink de pink
sink de pink"

alryt ppl...! now its getting lk real fun hehe...!!

7. what do your friends think of you?
love is all around-wet wet wet

ahh dey do?? think?? me?? okie....!! :)

8.what do you think of your parents?
thats why-mltr

"now u want me to forget every lil thing u said"?? :) hehe

..."u were neva satisfied no matter how i tried
now u wanna say gud bye to me..."
sob sob sob...!! hehehe....!!

9.What do you think about very often?
its electric- metallica

"i'm gonna be a rock n roll star
gotta groove frm nyt to day
gotta blow my crummy job
gonna blow de blues away"

ahh haaa...!! a close call :)

10. what is 2+2?
tender heart-lionel richie

"i never thought i'd be de one who would play de fool"....!!

ahh haa i ve been playin' de fool...! dats y...2+2 came out to be...'tender heart' :) lol...!!

11.what do you think of your best friend?
take it easy-eagles

"i ve got seven women on my mind"...!! lol...!!

12.what do you think of the person you like?
precious love

my my my my my my my my precious love....!! :) lol....!!

13.what is the story of your life?
hello-lionel richie

"n in my dreams i ve kissed ur lips...a thousand tyms" (blush blush)...!heyy u...i m caught...! lol...!!

14.what do you want to be when you grow up?
breakaway-kelly clarkson

"grew up in a small town... (so true)
n wen de rain 'd fall down....

wanted to belong here...
but something felt so wrong here
so i'd pray
i could breakaway

i'll spread ma wings n i'll learn how to fly...
i 'll do wht it takes 'til i touch de sky....

out of de darkness n into de sun
bt i wont forget all de ones dat love..."

bull's eye...!! dis song so precisely... tells a side of my story...!! hehe...!!

15.what do you think when you see the person you like?
rock n roll all night-kiss

"you show us everything u 've got
u keep on dancing n de room gets hot...
u drive us wild...we 'll drive u crazy...
u say u wanna go for a spin
de party's jst begun, we 'll let u in...

i wanna rock n roll all nyt...n party everyday...uuuu i"

read dat?? lolz...!! :)

16.what do your parents think of you?
californication-RHCP

"first born unicorn...

n buy me a star on de boulevard...

cobain can u here?... hehe

born n raised by dose who praise control of population..."

ahh well...if dats really wht dey think about me... den dey are hell ryt :)))

17. what will you dance to at your wedding day?
backyard brawl-alice cooper

(ahh mosquito's eye)

"got a head full of rage n a belly full of hate
i'm de neighborhood legend dat jst cant wait

for de backyard brawl
backyard brawl...
another backyard brawl
backyard brawl"

hehe...!! wht a way it 'ld be to start off a perfect war...'marriage' :)...!! cant help wondering wht de gal gonna be lk uh? wink wink

18. what will they play at your funeral?
one last breath- creed

eyaaai bacteria's eye...!! :)))

"bt i m down to one last breath...."

fellas... ve jst made a wish...! if ye ppl happen to be dere at de day of ma funeral... play dis song...! :))

19.what is your hobby?
welcome to de black parade-my chemical romance

"wen i was a young boy... ma father took me into de city
to see a marching band
he said"son 'll u grow up,
would u be de saviour of de broken, de beaten n de damned?" ..."

ohh yeah...ve jst found de saviour of de world...n found out dat its me...!! alryt...?? hehe...!!

20.what is your biggest secret?
the unforgiven-metallica

secret?? as in..."dis whipping boy done wrong..."?? or dis one..." i dub thee unforgiven"?

nay...dey dun count into 'secrets'...!! ye knew it na?? :))

21.what do you think of your friends?
last Christmas-george micheal

aieee??

22.what do you think of yourself?
dear diary-pink

"dear dear diary..i want to tell my secrets...
czz u 're de only one dat i knw who 'll keep dem
dear dear diary...i want to tell my secrets...
i knw u 'll keep dem n dis is wht i 've done...."

lolz...! dats exactly how it had begun... wid a song i never ported...! n de end shows no sign of difference... wht is dis song huh?? naa...nanaaaa... nananannaaaa...crap!! progresses lk a rhyme...!!

ps- ve addressed dere names....arunima' n jahnabi'... czz dey happen to be de sole visitors of ma blog :)

Curlicued... ahh in de cirle of tags...!!

A)- Four schools/ colleges/ jobs i 've been at in my life-

i ve always been a back packer...! so its gonna take some mouth full of lines...to write about all de schools n colleges i 've been at...!!

1. KV Gangtok, Sikkim- ma first love...ma first school... still continuous to define me...!! everything abt it... is so unhanded in ma memory...! its de dream i would rather wake up to...perpetually!! "Bonafide"... our den principal, while addressing de morning assembly, once had hailed over me. :) my teachers...ma class mates... ma brother...ma brother's class mates... ma juniors... ma seniors... de scenical adorns... dere was so much to look upto...!! de tyms n lifes... de legend of kv gangtok...live along me!!

2. KV Pushpvihar, ND- dats purely for ankit, ankur and vishal... n for those stray dogs we used to feed... dose curdling moments playing hide n seek... those long strolls after school on our way to de "de jamming point"... those school projects... those art and craft classes... n a lot dat would suffice for de last three- four lines ...!!

3. PGDAV, DU- ahhh... ma first crush...!! n dis tym...its a gal :) de tym i had dere... was all about her. bunking away to glory...den escaping JK mam's acknowledgment... her hailing me as de next 'romila thappar'... ahh...was fun...!! n it was during dat one year i spent dere... dat ma affinity n stickiness towards de stage, scaled over de rest of de shit that makes me, me! n i found something in me, dat would later prevent me from dieing (figuratively), 'go rock' :)

4. JD- de first day... de orientation.... ma song....n dose plaudits ... n den dere were... dose pretty eyes... smiling at me... "nyc work dude"! ahh (blushing n winking).

* i didn't bother myself to include a few other schools n colleges i ve been at. :)
* "go rock"... i stole it frm arunima. dats her staple lyn..."go me" :-)


B) Four TV shows i love to watch-

1. RECESS- deres so much more to dis animated tele series den a plot dat seems a sure short bull's eye shot, surrounding six fourth graders n wht dey do in de most loved part of school's tym table, recess. a stir to what we learned to forget... "love, friendship and life"!

2. ER- as was quoted somewhere ''er: de most gripping one hr on television"! n if dat aint enough to draw u to it, its de most awarded tv series 'til date. de most realistic surreal characters i ve ever got to watch. ahh...dose desi versions...dey suckk... big tym.

3. DIFFERENT STROKES- strokes here, refer to de strokes of colour. Two black kids to a white dad and a white sister :)

4. will quickly draw on de rest of de shows i like...!! Oprah (ahh... i can really get all she-up); hell lot of a stuff aired on cartoon network, Disney channel n discovery channel (especially de traveling guide n anything pertaining to physics); with out a trace; FRIENDS;..n...n.... ahh!

* dese days, i m lesser on TV n better on PC :)
* she-up...?? eyooo... i invented it :)


C) Four movies i can watch over and over-

1. The School of Rock- dis got to be here. rock n roll, an unparalleled wit n dose jinks of being a slacker.

2.Titanic- nothing is larger den lyf.... or wait! is dere...??

3. Disney's flicks- every one who wasn't just dropped, an adult into dis world... luvs dem...!! dey drill u with lyf...!!
disney's live motion pictures...?? ahh... pirates of Caribbean: de curse of de black pearl, is a breezy watch! spiritually, ecumenically n grammatically...!! zany...?? ahhh jacky naa??? :))
to sum up, Disney's motion pictures are reasonably gud....!!

4. all de left overs...!! :))

D) Four books I liked the most-

1. de zahir(paulo coelho)- my brother had bought dis one fr him self. i picked it up n was hooked to it ryt frm de beginning of de 31st page...!! lol...!! hehe...!! as in... it got to me slowly.

2.anne frank: de diary of a young girl-" its de common man dat luvs war. czz if dat wasn't de case n if dey all had stood against de war, dere were no wars"! un tainted scribbles, which were nt written fr de ppl to draw references, lk i did. its a real diary.

3. what Einstein told his Barbour(Robert Wolke) - ahh... physics made fun...! qualifies as de best book for unqualified ones :)

4. the room on de roof(ruskin bond)- always caught up with Indians painted against alien backdrops...!! heres more... an English boy(bleakly reflected) painted against Indian backdrop.

*non of dese were read in de recent tym :)

E) Four places i have been on a holiday-

1. Sikkim- 26th jan, 08 de morning was draped with laziness in de room number 209 of 'lonark leisures'. it would ve been ma fourth day with out a bath... bt i had other plans...!! de water heater flunked in de middle...n i m left dere... in de semi nude... with soup all over me... lk it happens in hindi movies... n i had to let cold water run through me...! fr dose wondering de aieeeeeeeeeeee factor... de temperature was just above zero degrees... n well below 1. hehehe...!! glad dat i made ma way out of dat bathroom, alive!! n de other day... i was tracing ma past, wondering...n in de middle of dat... talking to our cab driver...! i always took de front seat beside de driver... n considering ma familiarity with ma hometown sikkim, ma frnds could challenge ma authority. i knew every lil damn door n window over de street... every sign board tells an ol' story to me... every turn is imprinted lk ma own backyard...! so... as de audio player switched onto de song "who says u cant go home"... ma frnd clamored frm behind..."man...!! dis goes with u..! finally...u r home"...!! yeah....!! i was home...!

2. Alwar- (may '08) "i got de white lyns on ma highway... to lead me out of town"...!! rode our way to alwar...! a no destination kinda trip...!!

3. Uttrakhand- includes Rani Khet, Dwarhaat, Haridwar, Dehradoon, Haldwani, Bhimtaal, Kashipur, Ramnagar, Chaukhutia n Mehalchauri...!! too many places... n de summer of '07...!! was in a spree to get acquainted with dis state....!!

4. sona n dumdum lake (feb '08)- were not in a fit to attend classes...! so just went wandering...!! is it cut fr de list of holidays....?

F)Four of my favorite dishes-

1. momos n thukpa- very staple fr me...!!

2. Chilly Paneer- ahh...!! add seasoned salt... n it gets better :)

3. Continental- had once in "blues"...!! ma cousin treated me with all de expensive continental delicacies. n ma taste buds were all delighted...!!

4. Nun Chiyaa n Sayali Roti with stuffed corn- ymmmmmmmmmmm...!! entitled as something more den ordinary...a cuisine frm sikkim... prepared for grand suppers...!! nun chiyaa... of course is de very basic beverage.

G) Four websites I visit daily-

1. Google- frm shit to dunk... frm factitious to fanatical... frm bleak to shrewd... frm bomb to tomb ( ahh rhymes naa)... frm anarchic to orderly... frm de backyard garbage to garage rock... frm punk to classic... frm historical to trendy... ye spell it... n ye got it...!!

2. Orkut n Facebook- ma dwelling... i literally live with dis parallel virtual world...!!

3. U-TUBE- mostly fr music videos... n songs dat i dun ve in audio format...!!

4. Mininova- its a home to movies...unplugged albums... ebooks... n latest softwares....!!

H) Four places i would rather be right now-

1. sikkim- dats kinda inexplicable...!!

2. de MEZZ, NFC- fr de pub rock fest....!! can say... attending some live gig...!! any where n every where...!!

3. On stage- "someday i 'll be saturday nyt"...!! ahh haaa....!!

4. In ma fantasies- ahh... dat would be lk going too personal :) hehe...!!

I) Four people I m tagging-

arunima tagged me... so cant tag her bac...!!
sachin daju...?? nop... czz balti blogging nai karte :))
jahanabi...? she has already done it...!!
sammy...?? ahhh...!! hmmmm...!! nay...!!

hehe....!! i m done i guess...!!

de garbage

i have, more den often, left many scribbles before dey were any where close to their ends. i was, rather am, lil dis oriented towards de marks n scroll of de signs n symbols dat we call de language of de heart. de strokes of my pen seem unaligned to de world dat is inside of me which, irrespective of ma stagnated life, always is on a move. my scribbles would be sans me.

n den dis happens, dis!! nay...nay...not dat!! yeah....dis!! n i resolute to keep dese derisions happen. junk, for pleasure. crap, for creations. derision, for anecdotes. rag, for heart. trash, for thoughts.

from dis post on, i would be gleaning what ever percolates from my heart and would muse over de thoughts i had left un pondered. more paper work, more doodles and more of blogging :-) ...amain... amen...!! :))

etc..etc...n one big bad word..."rockiest n rolliest"

"doped with sex n drugs"...n den de rest dat is tabooed is, self courtesying, rock and roll...!! dat was back in, 1960's and specially during de summer of 1967, epitomized as in 'de summer of love', rock and roll was de skins and bones of dose hippie movements, psychedelic movements, beat culture, one world phantasms, rumbling dose notions of free love and free food, contention against de dubbed religion and 'light my fire', 'all you need is love' n ' nature boys' were echoed through de amplifiers all across de lavish streets of USA.

'rock n roll' has grown up in time. it is no more dat wayward son, who once had discarded n refused to recognize dose middle class's tenure with moral legends n working class heroism. resonating de summer of love, den JNU students took on to endorse mass smoking n she-class tagged up themselves with short hairs and he-class, severely boycotted de barbers. "lingo...creed...sex...no Bar", dictum dat young guns took on to fulfillments, no lingo bugging, no creed cooking, no sex sicking, n Bars?? well, no bar...!! wen DU had become a stage for despised ones, when being a student of it, meant to navigate beyond de quips dere identity played with dem and dose were de times, wen dey swore onto de task of solemnizing de big bad word.
but dere populace was a meager hundreds of thousand, a speck amongst de fastest growing human mass. Many did embraced de movement, though never were a part of it. wht abt de rest?? certainly, dey didn't echo. and lil too soon, de stages were stirred by de augmenting crimes, social n economical instability, n faded wen de hallucinogens to attain higher awareness were banned frm general use.

dose summers eventually passed into de dates, and summer by summer, season by season, cause by cause, dis one big bad word, finally got in sync with de social propaganda n de paranoiac disposal of 'rock n roll' were out of rituals. though, some true rocker n roller, tried to stick to de "rock n roll" like religion in its most neutered form, dey couldn't surpass de need to change underneath de commercial aspect dat later got hooked to de big bad word. de big bad word was shortened, de big bad word was manipulated under de mimicry n posing stuff n de big bad word was tunned to be a master piece rather den being tunned to de inner self, dat grows up as a classic n cults. cults, dat sucked back wen dey were gigged fr de first tym and dey suck even now. see...dats classy...no change...with tym...!!

bands came to go...! genres like alt. rock, country rock, indie rock, Anatolian rock, art rock, blues-rock, cello rock, Celtic rock, Christian rock, garage rock, glam rock, raga rock, samba rock, shock rock, wizard rock, n...so forth, all akin to de big bad word, surfaced.
de big bad word, dat once took to de cause of screaming for de unheard voices, anti war protests, a spiritual mission, communes, cults and more...was deceased to mere entertainment bizz...!! wen de beatniks died, hippies became inactive, den...dis big bad word became less vigorous. "rock n roll" which, today is nothing less of a world wide phenomenon, has stayed out of work fr some while now.

so...where de wayward son has gone...?? how could it be gone??
well, de wayward son, is home. so...finally de dad has convincingly done de task, de cradle has been re decorated, and de child is asleep. bt sooner or later, it has to wake up again. eventually, it has to tread ways. it has to be lost, for certain. it has to be a way ward again...!!
de broken strings will be mended, de amplifiers will be unearthed out of de bulk of trash. it 'll take on de fake wires, it will plug in all de powers and and with all de traits of moshe n head banging, but dis time, and once again, it would be for some cause.

while de Tibet melts down, wen millions of refugees are strenuously exerting for a home, wen dere are still suppression going around de corners, wen ppl still speculate about a mid day meal n ppl merely throw in cans to combat, n sit back, dis 'big bad word' can be a better tool to out shine dose high visual effects of camouflaged transgression n misdemeanor n mass moral violation.

Bob Marley believed that racism could be actually cured, by injecting music. Once, he was to address ppl of Harlem, wen he had just dodged an attempt to assassinate him, and so was advised not to. He said ''dere are many ppl out dere, working hard to make dis world a worse place. How could I take a day off??"

so... how could i....?? how could you...?? how could any body...??

"de rivals...'i"...and...."i"

de biggest rivals……“I” and “I”. .

One “I” says…. Go for this… take all de possible risks to get what u want. risk or u live risking even more....

its ur life, make something out of it, which u want de most.
* Not Jennifer garner stupid. She is married so move on..…*


something that brings de ultimate pleasure to u… go for it…. Go for it…
*hay where are u going right now?*

leave it…u own it… have this…. Don’t have this… be this … god forbid u this… live for ur self… live to be ur self… don’t change…’til de change is no change… its just de new’ u’…don’t change for any one…*and hay think of going for a hair cut first, u need to ‘change’ them yaar……*

anyone ain’t as important as u are… listen to wht ur heart prompts… de heart wants wht it wants…
*just in de case ur heart wants a surgery.. Then go for it… don’t wait, u moron… u got my point…*

don’t judge… and never judge ur self… remember u cant be wrong as long u are guided by ur heart… u r special… and remain so…
*now don’t ask for the definition of ‘special’… we will talk abt it later on u dumbooo*


go after it… sail with de tide if its de next wave ur heart wants to catch… next against de flow… if its de struggle u believe is urs… you ‘re exactly de same you must have been…and this is de best u could have been…
*noop!! U could have been johny depp or hrithik… don’t u think that would have been better…oh where were we???*

move on and be free… let her go… get hold of her…its love that every one has deeply desired for… and is what men will ever desire in his life…start desiring for it.. and… and… and…



De other “I” says… who you are?? You owe a lot… to de humans who brought you into this world… u have no right over your self… cant u leave this just for their happiness??…
Can’t you smile when u want to cry, its ur mother looking…

stop bullying her, she is a frnd… she once gave you her notes…

appreciate his poem, he appreciated yours…

be grateful to him, he never envied you…
Thank him, he could have been bad to you, but chose not to…
thank god and devote mins of everyday to him/her.. It is ur duty…

u must live when she betrays you, there are other girls waiting for you…

wht wrong she has done, she is just a frnd, not ur girl frnd…alright! alright! She is ur best frnd and u trusted her… but no blaming game unless… it’s a romantic relationship she perches and precludes…

u must buy my point, I once borrowed urs…. Remember? …

don’t stop, it’s a race u must win for me…

if u suffer, those who love u will suffer… so stop suffering… don’t get hurt, this may swell… hide ur wounds, air may infect it…

don’t ask for love.. like u ask for water all de time… if u deserve it… u will get it… don’t beg anyone, it’s a sin…

keep up ur honor.. If it falls... than cover it with mud n burry it deep… so no one can see that ur honor fell…

sacrifice, that’s how wise man defines love… sacrifice, as u owe a lot…

dream, never do that… who knows u might dream something they don’t approve of… look what if that dream comes un done… they are just keeping you secure…

ur parents loved you, cant you love the girl they choose for you to love… who says love just happens by chance.. By coincidence… noop!!! Your parents loved you… n there is no coincidence in that…

think of money, save it, trick with de things around you… and give it to those who gave you… u have favors to return…favors that are so high and large in number… I m afraid, u may never be able to return them at all…live for others… that’s life…

forget abt de tide… its not something to go for… instead chose a shore, a lovely shore and live peacefully… only insane went deep into de tides… its not ur heart calling, its ur mobile dumboo…

Who says love is all that we ever needed… remember that day u were asking for ‘jeans’… when I said I love you…and… and… and…


If ‘I’ wins… de ‘I’ loses and if ‘I’ wins, de ‘I’ loses (ohm…quite messed up n confusing up situation). So who ever comes out victorious, de ‘I’ must lose.
If ‘I’ celebrates…’I’ is left to suffer detriment.

But every one must choose between the two “I”…
“We live being what we are…”I”… or we live being what we must be…”I”…

"de declarations of a Bum"

"de post is de reinvigorated form of my first post as a blogger 'wht de hell i think i m', aftermaths of which i m gleaning 'til date (lo-loudest)"

if i keep all de disguises away for a day.... beyond de veil of sophistry....
i m quite close to 'devil.... n nobody!...
n no clasping of hands in agreement please!!!
born on 14th jan...19''... in Sikkim(an imposture i keep practicing) to fell in
love with sikkim(i know its kinda hard to believe a felonious person like me could love).. anyways keeping away all the nuisances caused by this material in corbel...
where i was... ya... my first school K.V.Gangtok (i told u i m a liar).... is like heaven to me.. so cant go on without mentioning it... n all the very very special frnds (partners in crime) i found there.... though we are apart(in different prisons)
i somehow, feel the connection and the string between our hearts is unbreakable...

now after being done with all this story.. lemme come to .. wht de hell i think i m!!

i m quite close to johny depp... alright alright.. with some alterations... what?? alright!! with a lot of alteration!!!! with looks to die for (what?? u still believing what i m saying???).
confused as suggested by wht has become my second skin, my black TQS jeans..(oops u got it... bought it in de time of heavy sale, 50+50% off) as i m always spotted wearing it.... n my hairs... a complete mess!! though i carry them well...(remember my johny' face).
and yeah i have a pair of brown eyes.... n not black... whts de big deal?? that i didn't notice it.. for almost 19 years....n i m just 19!!! so these days.. my eyes are a big rage amongst de girls (forget what i said).
i m a spoilt brat n de dark stud(horse guys)... of my family..... i stumble with every step.... so what if i stumble n fall over to write poems? i love to sing... though i m not sure if people love to listen me... hmmmmmmm... anyways i m desperate to have my own rocking band!!!!! (anyone out there??.
known as quite a caring n devoted frnd... n an igniter by just a mere speech...
(ha ha they r such an idiotic souls)... n some one who comforts during the hours of suffering. a born genius n amazingly, still a genius..(hell to those who say 'born genius ruined by life')....
hay how to stop this yaar.... there can't be conclusion to 'myself'..
anyways...Arunima...i have done it....my first post..yabbaa dabbaa duuuuuuu

"de moon reveals myself to me"

i see a man who stares upwards,
and wrings his hands from the force of pain,
i shudder when i see his face,
'the moon reveals myself to me'

Laments in de silence

Rhythmic fall; of words
With the seasons leafs
Drying off to fly
Withered in the wind

They, words and leafs
Sneering over the
Freezing bark and silent harp
Luring the ink of poet
And its heart.

And out in such moon,
Too keen to bloom
I forget what
it was like the noon…
an archaic pain, an ardent hurt
and wounds filth with dirt……

tagged down....!! (phew!!!!)

1.Pick out a scar you have, and explain how you got it.
- "scared of my self"...dun know how scientifically refined tht statement is....! n..."scared of what i see in the mirror"....hehehe!!

2.What does your phone look like?
- ohhh...Nokia 'vertu...(heyy ur eye balls expanding??) it looks like tht... very expensive one... indeed it is!!! guys i gotta tell this has few diamonds ... featuring a blinding 120 carats worth of VVS-1 grade diamonds....n yeah if u thinking of buying one...its tagged... $1,000,000...!! what???????????????

3.What is on the walls of your bedroom?
- winnie de pooh... n pink floyd's wall paper in black n white...well i m still working on de connection between rock and cartoonz...! n a sign saying..." close ur eyes and u will see... u are all u really need" quoted by bon jovi.

4. What is your current desktop picture?
-funny...! ma system is under a hijack threat...! so a link in the form of an icon has covered de whole desktop...u click on de desktop ny where n it opens a website..."scan... its free... buy de spyware removing tool"...bull shit!!!

5. Do you believe in gay marriage?
-well...realizing its just a funda of X n Y chromosomes n dere ratio...dat should nt deprive dem of the choices every one has so often glorifyingly talked abt!! un less n until they don't impose it and is mutual..its believable!!

6. What do you want more than anything right now?
-hmmm... oops...all i want is everything...is dis way too much?? nope?? bt if its abt exactly penning that one thing down....hmmm it gatta be my own band jamming more often...!

7. Are your parents still together?
-yeah....'still' together!! hehehehe...yup..sure guys...its been 36 years now! gosh...i m statistically correct...hehehe!

8. Last person who made you cry?
-yeah...n that person looked more or less like me...! same messed up hairs...same eyes (brown... wuppie!!!)... same "all de good stuffs gone" kinda look..! sure, it was me...!

9. What is your favorite perfume/cologne ?
-hmmm never actually experimented...!! usually wear ny thing...! looking to get ma hands on AXE...(hope it does work de same for me...hehehe)

10. What are you listening to?
-"tik...tuk...tak...tac...." hehehe nothing actually...just my key board's saying 'hieeeeeee"....ha ha ha lolz!!

11. Do you get scared of the dark?
- hmmmmm...yea...!! bt of what is inside in me...?? hell scared!!

12. Do you like pain killers?
-am i some freak?? okey i m!! bt not as in to like pain killers or any medicine for that matter!!

13. Are you too shy to ask someone out?
- oops...err...! heyy whts dere in de sky?? a grt gig...look!! wht???? do i need to answer dis...??? okey okey...dere u caught me!! yeah i m hell shy n dead scared to ask ny one out...!! no points if u ve guessed it tht i ven't asked ny one out... yet!

14.If you could eat anything right now, what would it be?
-momozzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!! any time...!!!!!!

15.Who was the last person who made you mad?
-heyy until its not proven that i m... no one did.....hehehehehe!!

16.Who was the last person who made you smile?
-de one who just "tagged down" me!! :-)

17.Is someone in love with you?
-nope!! sob sob sob sob....!!

tagging down:::: arunima n sammy!!